Wait for what?

Wait for what? Wait 'til my heart stops beating? Wait for forever when all is left of forever is the ashes of the past? Wait for the sun to come when all I can see in my life is this miserable storm? Wait for the love to come back when I'm running away from you? Oh no, I just don't know what to do. I am a fool. I betrayed my heart. I tormented everything inside of me. I tortured my own self. I hate myself.